"But I don't say that in the end I'll have to answer to ...God or Caine or Ennoia or whomever for whatever cut I made or didn't make."

When you're dead, you're dead, in her opinion. Unless you are undead of some kind -vampire, ghost, whatever-, but that's still kind of alive, in the larger picture. Final death is final, that's kind of the point. It just comes more easily to some than to others.